so yeah, what's been going on? not much really. i mean, it's been 1 day since i posted... nothing could've really happened. i'm reading the book lolita, and it's very good. i finished reading slaughterhouse-five on saturday i think. that book is very odd. yes, very odd indeed. butt you should read it. yeah, so my friend amanda ( almost gone ) wants me to do something similar to what i did with my blog. she wants crazy colors and shit. well, i guess i could do it if she wanted me to but mine took me like 524395623 hours to get right. yesterday my friend went to see dashboard confessional at this free show thing and i gave her this picture of chris to get signed for me, but they weren't doing that shit. yeah, so i was pissed. but whatever. oh and amanda... you see where it says the time and whatever? well, on that same line, click where it says "comments?" and then you can post a comment. you see it? do you? well? do you? good. now write something in it. um, well, i'm bored so i'll go now

yeah so my modem is actually working... although i had to log on on a 28.8k speed hookup thingy or whatever. yeah, so it's really slow and shit. anyway, i saw unfaithful on friday night and it was a very good movie. i thought diane lane was perfect. anyway, i've been looking around for the height of the actor james franco for like 30 minutes and these so-called "fan sites" list everything about the damn guy except his fucking height. oh yeah, when i start to like the work of an actor or an actress i have to find out their height. don't ask why... i just have to know. also on friday night i wanted to watch jay leno 'cause hayden christensen, who plays anakin skywalker in star wars: episode II - attack of the clones, was on it but i fell asleep 10 minutes before he got on, and i woke up when the damn show was over. fucker! let's see... what else... oh yeah. my friend antoinetta's sweet 16 is next week, and i still don't know what i'm gonna get her. she's the one that i'm going to the prom with. anyway, her party is on sunday and i seriously don't like the table that she put me in. the only person there that i like is amanda and there's this kid marcos at the table and i really don't like him. he's mad annoying and he better not talk to me the whole night. and monday i have this field trip thingy and i'm sleeping over my friend toni's house on that night 'cause they leave at 5:30 a.m. and there's no way in hell i'm getting from mahopac to white plains that early in the morning. i have a doctor's appointment tomorrow 'cause i need one to get into college. hmm... there's nothing really else to tell. i think i'm gonna go and change my profile. i'm gonna go now.

well things have been getting back to normal i guess. i had this english test today... too bad that i didn't even know we had it. yeah i was royally shocked when the teacher was like "ok! test time!". i thought i was gonna die. i also ran the mile today in gym. why we need to do this to graduate is something i will never understand. anyway i got 10:27 on it, which is very good i guess. for me at least. i definately thought i would puke, pass out, puke again, and drown in my own vomit. that probably would've made my day officially "bad". last weekened i saw spider-man and it was soooooooooooooooooo damn awesome. i'd go see it again, but i won't. i wanna see a movie this weekend. maybe i'll go see unfaithful, which looks really good. and a small movie called star wars: episode II - attack of the clones comes out next week. maybe you've heard of it? well, i'm gonna see if i can get advanced tickets so i can see it on thursday. and since it was just my birthday on monday and i ended up with a nice sum of money, i think i'll buy ocean's eleven on dvd since it's such a great movie. i watch a lot of movies don't i? i think that's why i always know who someone is when i see them in a movie or on tv. even if it's an obscure person or something. damn, i can't believe that it's almost time to graduate. i swear it feels like i just started high school like a week ago. it's definately gonna be weird going to college and not seeing everyone that i'm used to seeing everyday. even though i don't like a shitload of people in my school... but that's besides the point. i got prom coming up so maybe i should go get a tuxedo. and $140 to pay for the limo. so yeah, that's all for now kiddos. i just thought of something: does anyone read this damn thing?

i haven’t posted in a week because of all of the things that have been happening. well, as i had said a student at my school had been injured and was in a coma. unfortunately he passed away on tuesday evening and since then everyone at school has been feeling pretty bad and whatnot. last night i went to his wake and it felt very overwhelming. this was the 1st wake i have ever attended and it felt very surreal. when i walked up to his casket, i felt like i was gonna cry, but i didn’t. something inside of my chest felt like it sank all the way to my stomach. i wasn’t gonna let myself. i thought it was very nicely done. the family had all these pictures of him when he was a baby and more recent ones as well. yeah, so everyone who went was very upset by everything that happened. i was comforted by someone that I hardly even know, so that made me feel better. that just shows you that it didn’t matter if you knew him well or not at all because everyone was there to help comfort each other. it brought everyone in our community together. although it’s a shame that it was a sad event like this that had to do that. since i don’t believe in a concept of heaven or hell i feel better knowing that somewhere out there, his soul is being reborn into another life. hopefully his new life will be longer than his last one. i’m gonna go. i just wanted to let anyone who even reads this to know what’s been going on.
as one journey ends, another soon begins.
rjv #77
5.8.1984 - 4.30.2002
take care of yourself.