i don't know why i got this thing in the first place. i was thinking it might be nice to just air out my dirty laundry..... but i just don't want my demons or whatever to be out for everyone to see. i'd rather keep things bottled up, thank you very much. i don't even have interesting blogs to speak of. all i seem to talk about is what happened in physics or something to do with movies. that's not very exciting. maybe i should start to tell you people my secrets. well i don't think i put them up 'cause i don't want people to look at me different or something like that. i mean, why should i just start to tell you things that you wouldn't want to hear. maybe if i had some type of honky dory type of life i would. but not everything that's happened to me has ended in warm happy thoughts and sugary dreams of puppies. why am i even worrying about this sorta thing? is anyone even reading this damn thing right now. i don't think anyone had even seen this blog other than amanda. dammit. well, anyway, my day was boring and so was yesterday. i can't take this school bullshit any more. and the fact that i'm going to college for another 4 years is just a very disturbing thought. i can't take it. most people started their senior slump once they heard from collges that they applied to. well i started mine back in september. i'm just using classes as an extention of sleep time, as i don't seem to get any of that at home. well, i think i'm gonna go now.... i think i've ranted enough for one evening. bye bye.