the last time that i posted something on my blog was 1 week ago. not because i haven't had anything interesting to write at all. well, that was maybe part of it. but rather it's because my piece of shit computer from dell is already starting to give me problems. the modem feels like kicking me off when I've been online for anly a couple of minutes. if i try to read e mails or go to any websites or talk with people it stalls and kicks me off. so i'm gonna have to fix this little problem. like right now I'm posting from the library. anyway, there really hasn't been anything ecxiting that's happened in my life in the past week. i finally decided what school I'm going to go to in the fall. i decided to attend concordia college. now i just have to get my driver's lisence and a car. i think that would help a lot. yesterday someone from my school was in an accident and now he's in the hospital. he fell and hit his head on concrete and i heard from people that he's in a coma. i'm not really friends with him or anything but i hope he gets better. it really sucks that it happened at all. anyway, i have an english project due tomorrow on jefferson airplane, so i think that i should get started on it. see ya later.

ok, my friend justin won't be able to go to manhattanville 'cause it turns out he'll have to pay like $21000 for tuition, minus the $10000 he gets from financial aid and whatnot. i feel really bad for him 'cause he really wanted to go there and he got let down big time when he found out how much he would have to pay. i got accepted and i'm going there in the fall and I'm getting like $15000 a year, so that helps me out big time. but then i have to find $6000 to pay for the rest. damn this college bullshit. i hate it so much. anyway, my day has been boring. i'm shocked 'cause i haven't been kicked off from aol yet. i'm really just waiting for this thing to just flip a bitch. jesus christ, it's so fucking hot over here. it's a fucking heat wave. you know i really hate when it gets this hot. i get all sweaty and shit and i feel uncomfortable no matter where i am. and to top it all off, my fucking school has no ac anywhere except the library, computer labs, and the auditotium. it must've been like 92° today. i'm oh so glad that I got my glorious ac going. i really don't get how i can be from a tropical country and not be able to stand the heat. i just don't understand that part at all. my friend found out something about me that i don't think i've ever told anyone. it's not really the biggest thing ever or whatnot, but still i didn't think i would've told her the way i did. but you know what? i'm glad that she knows this now. i dunno why, but i just am. but whatever, i'm gonna leave it at that and go on my merry way.

i saw ice age last night and i really liked it. it was a good movie. i also bought memento on dvd and i watched it last night before going to sleep. it's really one of the coolest movies i've seen in a long time. it's phat 'cause it starts with the end of the movie and it works its way backwards. but at the same time we start the beginning of the movie and that half works its way forwards. you can tell it's the beginning half 'cause it's in black and white. anyway, at the end of the movie, the 2 halves meet at what would be the movie's middle and it all makes sense. it's really awesome. anyway, it's really early in the morning and i can't get back to sleep.

ok, i just spent the better part of the last 2 hours making my blog look all different and shit. i'm extremely content with the way it looks now. i even added a comment thing, but i really doubt that anyone will even bother to post a comment. maybe amanda will. anyway, my week was extremely boring. nothing really major to report. i've been watching movies like a mother fucker though. just the other night i saw best in show. it's a funny movie that pokes fun at people that are involved in dog shows. i highly recommend it. i've also seen but i'm a cheer leader which is about a teenage girl who gets sent to like this place to make her straight because everyone thinks that she's a lesbian. i recommend that movie as well. well, as you can tell by the time, it's early on this saturday night so i think i'm just gonna go kill some time and look around for some worthy sites. see ya.

yeah so i haven't posted anything for a while, so here goes. today at school was this silence day thing. i participated in it and the point was not to talk and shit. it symbolizes the silence that gays experience because they are who they are, or something like that. anyway, i messed up and did happen to speak. it was at lunchtime when i was sitting with my friends and they did everything in their power to get me to talk but they all failed. a jelly bean rolled to me on the table, i picked it up and i said "what's this?" so yeah, i goofed. i let my friend borrow requiem for a dream and she told me that she liked it. it's my favorite movie ever so i highly recommend that you go out and buy it right now. last night i saw you can count on me which is a movie about a brother and sister which have grown up to be very different people. i also bought the mulholland drive dvd. this is the weirdest movie ever. i'd like it more if I knew what was going on in it. so that's all. my computer's modem has been giving me problems like signing me off and shit, so i'm gonna go before it does it again.

i don't know why i got this thing in the first place. i was thinking it might be nice to just air out my dirty laundry..... but i just don't want my demons or whatever to be out for everyone to see. i'd rather keep things bottled up, thank you very much. i don't even have interesting blogs to speak of. all i seem to talk about is what happened in physics or something to do with movies. that's not very exciting. maybe i should start to tell you people my secrets. well i don't think i put them up 'cause i don't want people to look at me different or something like that. i mean, why should i just start to tell you things that you wouldn't want to hear. maybe if i had some type of honky dory type of life i would. but not everything that's happened to me has ended in warm happy thoughts and sugary dreams of puppies. why am i even worrying about this sorta thing? is anyone even reading this damn thing right now. i don't think anyone had even seen this blog other than amanda. dammit. well, anyway, my day was boring and so was yesterday. i can't take this school bullshit any more. and the fact that i'm going to college for another 4 years is just a very disturbing thought. i can't take it. most people started their senior slump once they heard from collges that they applied to. well i started mine back in september. i'm just using classes as an extention of sleep time, as i don't seem to get any of that at home. well, i think i'm gonna go now.... i think i've ranted enough for one evening. bye bye.